Callboy
Chapter VII
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Never
in all my life, in all my years in this "career" of mine has anyone
ever asked me this question right before I'm about to suck their dick.
Seriously. What sort of man would
stop me before he's about to
get possibly one of the best head of his life, and ask me this sort of
question? It was already flabbergasting enough to know he stopped me,
let along asked me a question on top of that.
It takes me a
moment to recover from my shock. I catch his wrist in my hand and try
to pry it away from my hair, but he keeps me still. Well, fine. We'll
just talk while he's got me like this.
"I don't know what you mean."
"I
think you know exactly what I mean. Though you don't look like you're
bothered by what you're doing, I can tell. It's easy to see behind that
mask you put up."
This surprises me. No one has ever called me
out on my act before. No one has ever noticed. And if they did, they
sure as hell didn't care enough to tell me about it. How exactly had
Aurel been able to see my true feelings?
Or is he just bluffing me?
I
decide to feign ignorance to his words. "You have an interesting
imagination. Though I do admit this isn't my dream job, that doesn't
mean I don't like it. I mean, c'mon. It's sex. Don't tell me you don't
like it or else why are you here?"
I dance my fingers along his
lower abdomen and down the curve of his pelvis, purposely drawing
closer to his libido though I don't touch it. I'm surprised he doesn't
buck his hips at the teasing, since men usually are raring to go when
they arrive here. Aurel, he's probably no different. After all, his
dick is half erect already.
But for some reason, unlike all
the other men, he's not letting himself give in to those animal
desires. He's not throwing me down onto my back and shoving into me
like I'm so used to having done. No, he's stopping us just a few steps
shy of going through with that. Why? For what reason?
Probably not a logical one. I can't think of a reason myself why he would do something so stupid.
"You're
saying you don't feel any remorse or regret whenever you bed a man?" he
continues, speaking to me with that strange tone of his.
Of course the answer to this is,
Yes.
Duh, I regret every time I step into a room and let yet another man
fuck my brains out. I hate every time I lie back, or crouch, or stand,
or whatever the hell they want, and moan as if I can't help but want
more when all I want is for them to stop. DUH. But I don't say it. I just give this small laugh and look at him like he's stupid.
"If I didn't like being here, wouldn't you think I would have run away already?"
He
pushes up and props himself on one hand, the other still holding me
still by my hair. I shift a little, getting onto all fours instead of
spreading myself out before him, and thankfully he lets me. "I think
you've tried, but you probably failed and no longer have the motivation
to do it again because of the consequences."
He's smart. I'll
give him that. But his words are useless in this place. He's just
wasting his breath and his money simply talking to me instead of doing
what his body so obviously wants to do.
Smiling, I continue to
play ignorant. "That's a plausible theory, but it's not the truth. I'm
not so weak that I'd let myself be subject to something I wouldn't
want. Now are you going to screw me or did you just buy me to talk to
me? Time is money."
The corners of his eyes pinch slightly. It's
a subtle movement, one that would've been missed if not for the fact
that I'm staring at him so closely. "Indeed, time is money. Is it money
that's keeping you here, then? If it's not the punishment, then you
must need the cash, right?"
Either he could really see right through me, or he was just a damn good guesser. I'm not sure which is worse.
I
reach up and catch the wrist of the hand still around my hair. He
doesn't let go, but he does shift his hand a little, so that it feels
more like he's caressing the back of my head instead of holding my
hostage. I scoot closer to him and sit in his lap, draping an arm over
his shoulder.
"Aurel, a lot of people wouldn't be where they
are if it weren't for money. Being a prostitute has nothing to do with
it. Where do you work, for instance. Would
you be where
you are if the pay was terrible?"
I'm hoping to catch him on this one. Most people would say no. But lo and behold...
"Yes, I would, because I like where I work. I like what I do."
I
shake my head and click my tongue. "You are one in a million." I move the arm
I have around his shoulder to curl in his hair and weave
through the short locks. He's a strange man, asking me strange
questions, giving me strange---but straightforward---answers.
"Now,
honestly, are we going to have sex and put your money to work, or are
we just going to continue talking and waste your precious cash? You
might as well get a bang for your buck, don't you think?"
You'd
think he would agree. It's his moneythat he put out there, after all.
But no, he goes and surprises me yet again with that resilience of his.
"Not really."
I almost want to call him stupid. What
sort of man would buy my time only to spend it talking? Don't all men
who come here want to fuck me? What's wrong with him? What the hell am
I supposed to do if we just sit here and yap away? Sure, I can fill the
silence if I have to, but normally, during these times, the things I
say, the noises I make, are usually incoherent garble and moaning
because I'm too busy having a dick shoved up my ass to actually have a
decent conversation with whoever it is.
"Oh? But I'm sure you're in need of some release."
I
reach down and curl my fingers around his half erect libido and give it
a nice, long stroke. He reacts, even though it looks like he's trying
not to. I bet he really doesn't want to have sex with me, but there's
no denying carnal desires when they're so evident.
"Just let me help you with it, okay?"
I
kiss his jaw and slowly work my way down. He lets me do it, though the
hand at the back of my head is a constant reminder for both him and me
than he cannot or rather will not let himself be lost in the tide of
pleasure.
I open his shirt and kiss down his chest and
abdomen, nipping lightly at the dips and curves of his muscles. Aurel,
whatever he does for a living, has given him a swell body. He's one of
the finer looking men I've ever bedded in my life.
Pushing
down his pants a little further, I position myself before him as I was
earlier and tease the head with my tongue, circling around it a few
times. Continuing to stroke him and tease him, I work him into full
erection. Unlike me, he can't force his body to lie. I know he has to
feel
something from what I'm doing, even if only a little. He can't possibly be so great an actor as I can be.
Wrapping
my fingers around the base, I take him into my mouth. I get him wet and
suck upon the tip, rubbing my tongue along the dip in the center.
Slowly at first, then gradually, I build up a rhythm. Moving my
head back and forth, going a little deeper each time, I eventually take
him in completely.
His breath quickens just a bit, but it's enough to encourage me to go further. I
know
no man has the resilience to reject a good blowjob. Especially not
someone who pays for it. And excuse me if I sound conceited, but hell,
what can I say? You can't deny skill when I've only been doing it, oh,
I dunno, about nine or ten years now? You'd think I would've learned a
trick or two, right?
I can feel him fight off the mounting urge
to orgasm. I don't know why he's holding back, or why he's so reluctant
to let me do what I'm being paid to do. While I suppose I can be
appreciative of it, it's just too foreign for me to accept. I don't
know what to do with myself. Sex... it's my lifestyle. And Aurel, well,
he's going to come whether he likes it or not because I won't feel right
until he does it at least once.
Working him, using my tongue,
using my fingers to make up for the area I can't take into my mouth,
rolling his balls in the palm of my hand, I draw every erotic sensation
out of him that I can until he can't hold back anymore. He jerks his
hips, as all men do, as he orgasms and I have to brace myself to keep
from choking as he spills into me.
The hand at the back of my
head tightens, and before I know it, he's pulling me off of him. I
flinch at the initial pain, but at least have the mind to close my
mouth to keep from spilling all over the sheets.
"So you
are doing this for the money. Or is this some sort of twisted pride you have as a prostitute to prove to me how well you can do?"
I
swallow and lick my lips. "I wouldn't call it pride, but you did pay
for my services. You might as well get something out of it."
"And
you're just working out of habit. I'm giving you the opportunity to not
do anything at all, which I'm sure none of your other customers let you
have, and yet you're still trying to get me to have sex with you." The
corner of his lip tipped up slightly in the hint of a smirk. As if I
just proved something to him that I otherwise would not admit.
...Maybe I did. I'm not sure. But the way he's looking at me is starting to creep me out.
"You're stuck in a routine, Kahoku. And you don't know how to get out of it even when the exit is staring you in the face."
I
reach back to remove his hand from my hair, but still he doesn't let me
go. His eyes, so fierce, force me to look at him, holding me still by
this leash of his that I can't get out of. "There is no exit."
"Because
you're not looking hard enough. Just like the rest of these callboys
'working' here, you have given in to the system whether you realize it
or not."
He's right. I have. But
that's because I don't want to get beaten. And I sure don't want to get
killed. It's either find the sympathy of someone from the outside who
will buy you, or find eternal freedom in death.
"See? You can't even deny what I'm saying."
I
bristle and roughly pull myself free from his grip. This time, he lets
go of my hair, though it's not much of an improvement when he takes my
arm instead. I don't know why, but having him tell me this, having him
point out everything I already know to be true... it makes me mad. It
makes me so angry, I want to lash out at him.
And I can't figure out why.
"Let go of me."
"I
won't. You haven't openly admitted that everything you've done so far
has been nothing more than a farce. You know I speak the truth, and you
know that being here hurts you. You know you aren't the only one
suffering, yet you do nothing to change things for yourself."
"Because I'll get hurt!" I spit at him, jerking my arm.
"You
hurt more by staying silent. I know there are people here to guard you
all and keep you from running away. How many times have you been
beaten? How brutally have they forced obedience into you?"
I
don't like where this is going. I don't like how suddenly, the
conversation scares me. My heart palpitates and I can hardly get myself
to meet his gaze. What does he want? What is he getting out of making
me admit to the truth of his words? What joy is he getting out of
making me confess to all the things I have kept inside?
"Answer
me Kahoku. How many years have you been here? How many men have you
spread your legs for? How long as it been since you've given up hope of
ever stepping foot outside of this cage?"
Nine, ten years. Too
many men to count; sometimes ten men a day, sometimes more, sometimes
less, every day, with one day of rest every few weeks, no holidays,
ever since I started working. I lost hope long, long ago...
These
words are on the tip of my tongue, but the muscle itself is trapped
against the roof of my mouth. How did the conversation turn so bad so
fast? How did he manage to spear me like a harpoon through a fish? How
did he manage to rip open my heart and get the chance to read it? How
did he even know I was acting and hiding it all to begin with?
I
don't know when it started, but I suddenly find myself shaking, my body
trembling under his hands. This isn't the sort of trembling that comes
with ecstasy. This isn't sexual in the slightest. My eyes can't even
look at them, only stare off at a random spot on the wall, my head
turned away.
"You may see no bright future, but there is one."
His
voice is suddenly soft. Compared to the gruff bark he had earlier, his
tone now draws me back in. I risk looking at him again out of the
corner of my eye, then slowly turn my head to face him.
He
reaches out and touches my cheek. I flinch, thinking he'll be rough
again---I've spent too much time with Tony to not expect at least a
little violence from another man---but he just strokes my cheek with
his thumb. His thumb comes back moist. I don't understand why, at
first, but then I realize what it is.
How cruel this man is.
With his striking eyes, with that attitude of his, with his hurtful but
truthful words... I hate him. I hate him more than I hate any other man
I have ever gone to bed with before. I hate him and the way he affects
me far more easily than anyone I have ever known.
This man... where did he come from? Why is he here? Why me, of all people, does he have to torture like this?
"Come
here," he says and draws me in. The tug is gentle but insistent, and I
find I have no strength to fight him. Or rather, no will.
He
falls back on the bed and brings me close to lay with him. I don't know
what he wants us to do, but as we linger there for a while longer, I
start to realize that he doesn't want us to do anything. Just stay as
is. Just like this.
I squirm a little, uncomfortable. "I can't..."
"You can."
"I'm
not used to being in my clothes," I say, my voice quiet. If I ever
happen to sleep in a patron's bed, it's while I'm naked. I never put my
clothes back on once they're off and I'm still in the company of
another man.
To break that routine now is bizarre to say in the least. I am very uncomfortable.
Wiggling
free of his grasp, I start to shed my clothes. He watches me, keeping
me near as if he wants to make sure I won't bolt on him. As if I can.
I would be hunted down and asked questions if I left the room before my
partner did, especially if I looked like I didn't have sex with them.
Once
I'm down to my bare skin, I hesitate, but eventually come back down to
lay with him. He's only got his shirt on, but by the way he looks at
me, he's probably more concerned about my own lack of clothing than his own.
I can't meet his gaze. He doesn't force me too either, at
least not anymore. He just keeps me close and drapes an arm around my
waist. Out of habit---yes, habit---I move in closer and snuggle against his chest.
He probably knows I don't really have the urge to snuggle, or
particular want, but he lets me do what I've been doing for years and we
leave it like that.
Sleep is hard to come by, especially since
I'm not as exhausted as I normally would be. Usually, sex tires me out
enough that I knock out pretty quickly after my last patron takes his
leave. During those times, I only have enough energy make it back to my
own bed (sometimes I didn't have any energy at all) before I'm out
like a light.
I'm tired tonight, but it's not the same as it normally is. I'm not as hard pressed to keep my eyes open this time around.
"Sleep."
His command, though more of a suggestion, makes me glance up at him.
The contact doesn't last very long, as I look away rather quickly. I
hide my face, my expression, and close my eyes to block out my
surroundings. It doesn't really do me any good because I can smell him,
a mix of his own scent along with a hint of cologne. The two are
subtle, something that can only be noticed and enjoyed at such a close
proximity.
Oddly enough, I like this about a man. I don't want to be overwhelmed
by different, strong smells. My nose will die and my lungs collapse
from all the chemicals. Or so it'll feel like, as it has many times
before. This subtly of Aurel's, matching with this peculiar, and
somewhat frightening attitude of his, makes me... well, I wouldn't say I
calm down, but it is a pleasant change and it soothes me enough to
relax a little in his hold.
Slowly, gradually, I am able to drift off and eventually my consciousness fades.
How strange that I can actually sleep without having to go through a
full round of sex at night before doing so. It's hard to believe, I
know. And yet... here I am, wrapped in his embrace, sleeping
comfortably without the lower half of my body aching and smeared with
disgusting white
stuff.
It really is so hard to believe...
Morning comes soon enough, and when I open my eyes, I'm still wrapped
in his arms. His eyes are closed, and by his deep, even breathing I can
assume he's still asleep. It's only like this I dare to look at him
properly, taking in his appearance as if for the first time.
He's frightening, in a way completely different from Tony. He's gentle,
in a way completely different from Uriel. There are too many things I
don't know about him, which isn't unsurprising, but what is is my
willingness and---dare I say it---want to find out and fill in those
gaps.
Removing my hand from his shirt, I try to untangle my legs from his
(something that had somehow happened during the night) and manage to do
so without stirring him. But when I push away, his arm stops me, his
arm tensing around my waist.
I look up to find him opening his eyes and looking down at me with a
slightly groggy gaze. We look at each other in silence, doing nothing
more than studying each other until at last he blinks and finally
releases me to cover up a yawn with his fist.
I use that moment to sit up and put a little distance between us. Like
the last time, I get out first, ignoring his stare as I gather up my
clothes and disappear into the bathroom without a word to clean up and
dress.
And just like last time, when I come out, he's still in bed, lying
there. I don't know what to think about that, or do in response. He's
not like Aldrich, who likes it when I paw at him and nuzzle like a
kitten. He's not like Tony who's indifferent to me and wants nothing
more than rough sex and to see me cry. He's not like Uriel either who's
actually kind, but still treats me somewhat like a pet, even if a
cherished one.
I stand there awkwardly as I finish buttoning the last of my shirt and
fix the sleeves. He sits up but doesn't really speak, only watches me
like a fish in a bowl. It's not too far from the truth, though I'd
probably suffocate by now instead of breathe at ease.
"I..."
"I'll see you again."
"W-What?"
I look at him, flabbergasted, but he gives me a straight stare in
return. After a moment, he stands up and approaches me. It takes nearly
all my will to keep still and not take a step back.
"I'll come again," he repeats. "I'll show you the difference."
I almost ask him, "Difference between what?" but I don't get the chance
when he vanishes into the bathroom. Left on my own, I sigh and run
a hand through my hair. I don't know what he's talking about, and
hearing he'll come again actually makes me anxious.
But then again, he
is supposed to be a patron of mine, and I
was
very determined to have him as another paying customer in the
beginning. Well, he will be from now on. I hope it's not a mistake,
though. Having him as mine, I mean.
Because I just know he's a devil in disguise.
There's no doubt about it. He's a devil. And I don't want to get caught in his trap.
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